Thank you so much for your kind comments about my quickly expanding belly. This has been my latest source of worry- just how darn big am I going to get? Am I going to need a wheelbarrow to tote myself around in the end? Are my small size four pant legs going to break under the weight of the enormous belly I will have and the massive chest I am getting? (Sadly, I think I need to shop for new bras AGAIN). Will working until 38 weeks be a totally unrealistic goal because of my gargantuan size?
It didn't help that the same day I resigned to wearing maternity tops full time was the first day my 32 weeks pregnant co-worker wore her first maternity shirt. And I'm 14 weeks.
Overall, I am thrilled to have a bump.
I waited so long for this moment- I revel in the miraculousness of it every day. Every morning the first thing I do is touch my bump and remember how very blessed we are. I am amazed and in love with the babies inside. I find myself narcissistically checking out my bump in every reflective surface I pass. I marvel at the sight I wasn't sure I'd ever get to see. However, it is hard to become comfortable in your own skin that rapidly changes faster than the average pregnant woman. It takes some adjusting.
I know that it won't be long that the bump will stay "little" and "cute" as my co-workers and parents of students at my school are commenting. I know there is a time not that far away that I'm going to be so enormous that I'll feel like I belong in the circus. (I know this for sure because I've seen belly shots of other twin mothers to be on blogs. All I can say about that is wowza.)
Today one of my co-workers commented that I was really big for only being as far along as I am. (Two thoughts went through my head: 1. Duh- TWINS, remember? and 2. Well that's the first in a long string of similar comments soon to come.) Then she went on to say, "Well, this too shall pass, huh?" Like it is a bad thing. That bothered me. I immediately felt the need to express how thrilled I am to actually LOOK pregnant. How novel this still is for me and how I love being able for people to see that I am pregnant with no question about it. How awesome it is to not have to put any thought into sucking in my stomach right now, like girls spend most of their life doing.
Basically I am a mix of feeling about it: uncomfortable in my own skin sometimes, defensive about it, happy and excited to see what I've got right now, but worried about what's to come.
5 comments:
Yeah we're gonna be huge...but its so worth it in the end right!!!
I think when I get professional belly pics they'll be at 5 or 6 months...because I don't want to look like a beached whale in those pictures!!! LOL!!!
So happy for you!!!
Embrace your bump! Even as your bump grows, don't let other people's comments get you down. Just remember that if your bump is growing then your babies are healthy and gaining weight!
P.S. I gave you an award on my blog!
I can't wait to see how beautiful that baby "bump" is gonna get! You'll be beautiful every step of the way!
You look beautiful! I'm excited for you. You're lucky to be showing so early. I remember at 20 weeks I was barely showing, and it didn't feel real. Just like you, I'd waited so long to feel that bump. And now I miss it.
Yes, you'll get big, but that means that your little ones are growing and will soon be here to meet you. Every day I look in the mirror and smile at my stretch marks on my belly. They are badges of honor!
Your bump is gorgeous! I worked hard at not letting people's comments matter to me. People say stupid things and everyone has an opinion.
Keep those picture coming!
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