I've had several moments this week that have made me think I'm out of my ever lovin' mind if I still hope to get to 38 weeks at work. The 3rd trimester was ushered in for me over the holidays, and my goodness- halfway through my second full week back at school, I am struggling. It wears me out just getting ready for school in the morning. I am just about done getting dressed/doing my hair/putting on makeup/eating breakfast and every day without fail, I am so worn out I crave a nap before I even step foot in my vehicle. THEN add in 21 kindergartners from 7:40 am until 3:10 pm (which would completely wear out a normal person) and it's amazing I can even walk to my vehicle in my personal handicapped spot at the end of the day.
I'm jealous of the twin mamas-to-be that stopped working well before my 29 weeks. I'm jealous that I can't be one of the twin teacher moms that said on a post on a twin chat board I read recently that they stopped at 24 weeks . I still think working right now is what's best for my babies (by earning a paycheck), and I don't think working is harming them in any way- or will make them come any earlier. But for simply my comfort- I am exhausted and want to be done with work. What keeps me going is that I know going back to school in spring will be far more painful for me than this. And that's what will happen if I stop before 38 weeks.
What fascinates me a lot lately is how parts of my body hurt that I never knew could hurt. Bones, joints and muscles are screaming for my attention- I think they are demanding, "what the hell are you doing to us???" Before this week, I thought the extent of stretch marks was simply that they just looked unattractive. Imagine my surprise when my stomach skin started burning like it was on fire this week. I woke up in the middle of the night thinking my husband had poked me hard in the stomach. But nope- it was just more stretch marks literally tearing my skin. Maybe that's because I'm now officially measuring 40 weeks according to my OB... that's right, that's full term people (and 10 1/2 weeks ahead of my 29 1/2 weeks). That would also explain why people stare at me where ever I go out in public. Picture this: if I make it to the ultimate goal of 38 weeks, I may just measure around 50 weeks. Imagine the looks I'll get then walking into Target. Ha!
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Ha Ha! Caught me blog reading when I should be doing other things again. OOPS!
I bet you are so cute! I can't wait for more pics!
And as far as work, you have to do what you are comfortable with. I know you will feel much better if you can get to the point where you wouldn't have to go back to school this school year. I know it is a drain, but you can do it!
I feel for you girl! I still just don't know how you do it! Glad things are going well overall for you though - You should be so proud of yourself for doing as much as you do! I can't believe our due dates are right around the corner!
It is tough - you go girl! I am measuring six weeks ahead - but I am tall at 5'8 so they have some room to stretch out. People still stare at me - someone said to me yesterday, "aren't you overdue".
I am still working as well - my mfm's tell me that there is no evidence after study after study that shows bed rest helps prevent preterm labor - they will take me off of work whenever there is a change in my cervix.
I am an attorney and fortunately for me, I can come and go and leave early if I am not busy - I cannot imaging getting through a whole day with kindergartners!!! Although, getting through the day with a bunch of attorneys is no cakewalk either!!!
I'm so sorry you're so uncomfortable sweetie! I wish I had some words of advice. Thinking of you!!
I feel for you. The third trimester hit me like a ton of bricks too (I actually had a facebook status at the time that said that exactly), and I'm only carrying one baby.
I really wish I was done work too.
Hang in there - you're amazing!!! I don't think I could handle kindergartners under any circumstance!
I'm sorry you're having a rough time. :-( Hang in there. I'll be praying for you.
LOL! Your own personal handicapped spot! Hmm... maybe I need one of those. :)
Already my hips are killing me.
I so admire those who teach kindergarten. I've taught PreK and 1st, so I have some idea. I know it takes an enormous amount of energy to get through the day.
One of my fears is to have to go on bedrest and miss out on that much more money.
Oh, and you're so right about the sub plans for long term. I'm already dreading that.
Sending you restful thoughts.
Thanks for this post...I was wondering how you were holding out...because I am getting super duper tired...and I know in three weeks its just going to be worse...and the pain...good grief. Plus the fact that I toss and turn and pee all night doesn't help much either.
Little sleep + 20 kindergarteners + aching preggo twin momma body = not much fun at all.
I feel you girl.
My perinatologist says they won't let me go past 37 weeks...they'll take my kiddos out before then...does yours let you go as long as you can?
I think I'm still only measuring a month ahead...and I feel enormous....so your belly must be getting so big!! That just means you're doing your job...those babies are just blossoming in there!!! GO MOMMA!!! :o)
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