... so our record stands: no good news from any appointment regarding our fertility and chance at conceiving a biological child.
My E2 level today was 169. An INCREASE from Wednesday's 124. The nurse said a flare up can happen sometimes after increasing the Lupron dosage.
Apparently my E2 levels (without meds) have always been a little high- the highest before this cycle was 104. According to the nurse, that isn't really horrible. (the good news, I guess) She also said there were a few other women at the clinic with elevated day 3 E2 B/W right now. Apparently I would need levels near 1,000 to be going through early menopause.
So the plan for this weekend is more Lupron at 40 units daily. I go back for more B/W on Monday. If my E2 is still high (above 40) I get one more chance- and I'll go back on Wednesday to repeat the E2 B/W.
(the not-so-good-news) If I don't make the cutoff on Wednesday, I'm screwed. I stop the Lupron and wait for my next cycle to start to try again. So there's the plan.
Right now my stomach hurts. And I'm really sad. Our anniversary is on Sunday- which is already tainted by Father's Day and the 1 year anniversary of my ex-best friend who now has a baby. My parents are going camping out of town for a week on Sunday- and it doesn't even seem to bother my mom that she's not going to be able to hear what's going on next week. My happy anticipation of IVF is long gone. That biological child seems even more far away than ever (if that is possible)... This sucks.
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I am sorry... don't know what to say about the increase! :( The link that I sent you was about a forum where some ladies discussed high E2 levels after Lupron. Their RE's mentioned that it is possible to have an ovulation inspite of being on BCP and hence their E2 was higher (inspite of lupron). So my thinking last night (after seeing that forum) since you were not on BCP and your lupron dose was low... was that may be that 124 was a post ovulation/screwed up low lupron value. In the forum, one of the babes mentioned that her RE was okay with stimm'ing at E2 value of 6o'ish. I had googled "lupron suppression high estrogen" and its the first entry (dcurbanmom.com).
I know it sucks to wait more or even think of cancelling a cycle. But its better to have a desirable start than have problems (quantity/quality) when you are close to ER/ET. May be you should speak with your RE about BCP as well? I wish after going through all that we have, we didn't have to deal with all this shit - and I hope this is just gonna make us a stronger human being and a better Mom! We will get there! I am praying for you! {HUGS}
Also, may be you are already on this forum... but if not: http://forums.fertilitycommunity.com - I find it very-very active and informative. Women get back to you instantly and there is always some one with the same situation as you... something we all know is comforting in this long journey.
I am soooo sorry. I will be praying like crazy for you this weekend that you get great news next week and that you don't miss the cutoff. I know that would really suck to have to wait until your next cycle.
The stupid lab didn't run the test that my RE is waiting on so I have to go back in on Monday for the lab to draw blood again. I am so angry with them!!! I wish we lived closer...we could both use an adult beverage right about now (even though I've also given it up in preparation for IVF but right now I don't care that I shouldn't have alcohol).
I hope next week is better for you!
I have to admit, I don't know anything about the levels you're talking about. (Since I can't even SEE my doc, apparently. Ahem.)
Anyway, I know you don't feel much hope right now. I won't say anything cliche'. I'll just say that I'm thinking about you, and you aren't alone. :)
Oh, how frustrating to have it drag out like this! I didn't start stimming till CD17 this time because of cysts left over from my previous attempt at IVF, and because my RE really wanted to wait until I was finished a big exam. Thankfully my screwed up body managed to keep the hormone levels close to day3-like over those 17 days, so things went pretty well anyhow in terms of stims.
Let's hope you get better news on Monday, or if not, that letting AF come and starting over might get everything properly sorted for next time around. Hope your RE has some idea what to try next.
Katie, there are no words that I can say to make this any better. I know this completey sucks. I will be saying lots of prayers for you that your levels will be down by Monday so that you can start stimming. After waiting for so long to get started, I know that more waiting is the last thing you want to do.
Perhaps the increased dose of Lupron will just take a few days get your body to respond - and the nurse did say that increasing Lupron can often cause a flare in the E2 levels.
I am not going to ask any questions about the plan for if the levels don't go down because I feel like they will.
As far as this weekend, I didn't realize the 1 year anniversary with the ex-best friend. I know that is a sore spot to be facing. Just try to ignore the fact that it is Father's day and just concentrate on your anniversary. Have a good time with Jake.
As far as your Mom, don't feel like you are alone. I constantly felt as if my Mom was so lost in our IVFs. After every conversation, I felt completely frustrated with her and her lack of interest. So I can completely understand.
Don't give up on your hope of IVF. You aren't out of the running just yet.
BIG HUGE HUGS. I love you.
Katie, I am so sorry, that this 'streak' of yours has kept going. It has to turn around sometime. Please don't give up yet. I'll be thinking of you and praying for your next appt and b/w results. Big HUGS!!
I'm so sorry. My heart hurts for you. But don't lose hope just yet. You will be in my thoughts and prayers!
Katie,
I'm sorry I couldn't comment sooner, I hope you got my email, and that your feeling a little better. I just thought I would tell you again how very sorry I am that things are not going as smoothly as you deserve. I've been thinking of you all weekend.
Chin Up. Big Hugs.
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