Can just good news ever come out of an RE visit for us? I am starting to wonder about that...
Here's the summary of today: I am no longer a u/s virgin. Everything looked good on there... she said the lining is at 8.9 and I have one follicle that looked like had just released or was about to, so then we were on to the injection teaching. We left feeling pretty good about all of that- both of our stress levels were lower and things were good. I was rarin' to go with my 7 pm date with Lupron and a needle. We decided to stop by the good mall on our way back (1 hour away from us) while waiting to get a call about the progesterone results. I even got a cute new skirt (on sale originally $44 at Gap- bought for $20) as my treat o' the day.
Then the nurse called and guess what? I haven't O'd yet- so no Lupron tonight for me. I have to take Norethi.ndrone for a week to induce AF. (I'm not happy about that, b/c I know I would O and get AF on my own without drugs) But, I can start Lupron on Saturday instead. So it is only a 2 day delay.
My good mood instantly faded however- I know that this process is dependent on a lot of things happening just right- but darn it- something went wrong before we even got started! It was just another glaringly obvious reminder at how delinquent we are at makin' babies. I also know that that is only pushing it back two days, but see- I've spent a lot of mental effort preparing for this first injection happening tonight. Now I have two more days to agonize about it and now I have an added worry that I'm going to forget what she showed us. Plus- I'm not really looking forward to telling people, "thanks for asking how it went... I actually didn't get to do the shot yet...blah blah blah..."
On a positive note: Norethi.ndrone is not strictly an IF drug, so it was covered by my insurance. Which was excellent considering we had to pay everything for the RE's end of the IVF today (we are satelliting the monitoring locally- so that isn't paid for yet). Ouch! It's hard to suddenly have $11,692 less.
Earlier in the week I added a running total on the side of my blog that shows about how much moola has been devoted to this endeavor so far. I was amazed that before paying for the IVF we were already at over $10,000. Wow. After paying the IVF fee today- we're at over $22,000- and we're not done yet. It's hard to believe that much has almost literally flown out our window in three years. It's also hard to believe that we don't eat ramen for dinner every night... or live in a cardboard box down by the river. (We're not rich, people- I am a teacher and Jake is a writer- two occupations notorious for being low-paying jobs.)
Eyes on the goal, Katie, eyes on the goal.
7 comments:
Sorry things got pushed back a couple days! :(
I'm starting Lupron on Sunday morning. So we'll only be one day a part on starting Lupron!
So have you ever done any shots before? If not try not to worry too much. I was terrified of needles before going to the RE. I mean, TERRIFIED!!! I promise the Folistim shots are easy peasy. You will hardly feel anything! I'm guess Lupron will be easy and painless too. The nurse showed us the needle yesterday and it was tiny like the Follistim needles.
Best wishes!!! I know you're ready to see that BFP as much as I am!!! :)
Wow! I just looked at your tentative schedule. We are sooo close on everything! Exciting!
I'm really sorry things got pushed back. Your disappointment is totally understandable.
Hang in there!
Hang in there! My body isn't cooperating this week either. AF should have been here last weekend and I am STILL waiting on her to show so that I can schedule my day three b/w and u/s. Ugh. Can we all just see our BFPs already?? AND to top it all off one of my friends from HS just had her first baby today and they also live here in Houston.
I'm so sorry things got set back. How frustrating. :( I'm thinking of you!!
Ugh, I know it's only 2 days, but in IF world it's an eternity... I know how you feel... And yes, the lupron and follistim are super easy. I'm worried about the progesterone in oil shots my dh has to do for me... and the $$ will pale in comparison to the little one in your arms this time next year ;)
Girl, you sure are brave keeping up with all the money you're spending. I couldn't do it. I have a semi-running total in my head of what it is, and lets just say, we could have bought a seriously nice automobile for what we've spent so far. One thing that helped me was that I decided in my mind that I'm going to pay for the kiddo stuff after he/she's here, why not pay for it before he/she gets here!
From my experience, the lupron was a piece of cake. I got to where I did them to myself. I had to do my injections for the gonadatropins IM (in my muscle) and that was a little sore when it was happening, then it stung a little. But I'd take a deep breath and Angel would stick me, then I'd let out my breath slowly and when I was done with my breath, the sting was gone. I did injectables for IUI's and IVF's and it is totally the way to go. RE tried to get me to skip the clomid, but I was bound and determined. Yep, this is all such a journey. BUT if you ask me today, would I do it all over again, the answer is YES. You are right, keep your eye on the prize!
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