Something good for a change

I don't want my last two icky posts touching my awesome news that I'm anticipating to post tomorrow, so I thought I'd thank Melissa, Michelle, Tammy, Mrs. Hammer and Jess today for giving me the One Lovely Blog Award!

The rules of the “One Lovely Blog Award” are: Accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award, and his or her blog link. Pass the award to 15 other blogs that you’ve newly discovered. Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chosen for this award.

1. Carli
2. meinsideout
3. Hope in Virginia
4. Little Bean???
5. JB
6. Stacey
7. Andrea
8. Erin
9. Tabitha
10. Elaine
11. Sarah
12. But A Moment
13. Mrs. Hammer
14. Baby To Be
15. Anna
(I cheated a little- some of these are semi-new. I figure that's good enough, right?)

My brother has not emailed me back yet. I'm not so sure he will- and I have no clue what he may have thought about my words. Thanksgiving may be a little interesting this year- ha. My mother DID call me Wednesday night to tell me they arrived at their camping destination and that she did have cell reception at that point, so she anticipates having reception on Friday. She did not mention our all-out fight this weekend. That's her style though: brush it all under the rug, internalize your hurt, and don't talk about unpleasantness. She did also send me a baby sweater in the mail today that she made. This of course, reduced me to tears, because my mom has been crocheting baby sweaters for every shower gift I've given for years. This sweater is for my very own baby- something I wasn't sure would ever happen. I know it is her peace offering, but again no mention of any of the words we exchanged in her note at all. I know I will need to decide whether I will let her avoid the conflict or if I bring it up again. Do I give in and just be resigned to the fact that I am never going get what I need from my mother? Do I stay true to myself and honestly voice my feelings- opening up those wounds wide open again? This is something I will deal with later- right now I am trying to focus on the most important thing in my life: my baby(ies). Less than 12 hours to go until our first u/s at 6 weeks 5 days. I'm praying so fervently that it supersedes the day I saw two pink lines as the best day of my life.

I also want to extend a HUGE heartfelt thanks for all of the caring and thoughtful comments left for me this week. They brought me to tears more than once. I do not know what I would have done without the internet IF world during the time in my life marked with our IF struggles. Jake tells me often that he is so glad that I have this supportive outlet. So thank you from my husband as well. Your support means the world to us.